Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Elizabeth Taylor of mine

Huge and massive response of media and people all around the world on the news of death of beautiful goddess Elizabeth Taylor was not surprise. She was the model of person larger then life.
My personal affection for this grande dame come not from her artistic background, which is huge and made her a legend but more from her lifestyle, energy, feminine aura and power of rebirth.
Her marriages are fascinating. Divorces, also. Double wedding with Richard Burton- priceless, like entire relation which seemed pretty genuine for film industry world.
I loved the way she was getting old, no drama pure example of getting old like cathedral. Always keeping strong feminine caprices , like when she was marrying truck driver hunk, with blonde hair. No, she was not embarking marriage in the old age trying to make safe contract with some male zombie of her age, to keep her company till death them apart and unplug her from the respiratory machine & give her proper funeral. Oh, no. She lived her seventies like she was moody prom queen.
In the rainy days/ and there are number of them when you are queen/, depressed, she was sitting at home, in her pajamas, not answering the phone, gaining g weight, eating tones of chocolate, running her race to Betty Ford clinic. Oh, how I loved her zero diets, solely with a lot of alcohol!(Yes, I've tried it, by chance!) Next moment she was like phoenix raising from the ashes in her super sexy evening gowns, attending number of charity dinners and social gatherings, fighting AIDS. Or she was proposed and appeared on the cover poages one more time with bridal tiara and diamonds. Chocolate this time was only a marital aphrodisiac, as well as diamonds!
This kind of vital feminine energy for me is a as you like to say EPIC, that empty word, except when applied on ET!
If I had chance to live in Hollywood almost certainly I would do my best to to meet her, as journalist.
Did we had anything in common/ if the small can be compared with grand/ as Latins used to say? Oh, yes we did. I now you are laughing now, but I don't care, cause you are not her. We share same astro conjunction Venus- Uranus, which always brings exciting private and emotional life. So I understand to some extent her life zest, being reborn every single day, her transformations and rejuvenations, fun and legendary, royal love life.
Now , want to say Good buy, one and only Elizabeth Taylor.
I love you.
I respect you.
I envy you.

Monday, March 28, 2011

Public reading in KCB

Public reading , from my second book of poetry Semi-precious. Fellow poets were great and focused - in a a way we can recall scent Rembrandt's famous painting Anatomy lesson .
But, no good remark on my queen mother posture - could do better supermodel's Mom appearance, with my 175 cm:))
Ok, too much fun, I know.
I express my gratitude to the people from Cultural center from Belgrade Mrs Dobrila Ibrajter& Mr Marjan Cakarevic for introducing my writing with such great honor and for their hard work and hospitality.
Zavrsno vece trodnevne manifestacije povodom Svetskog dana poezije u Kulturnom centru Beograda, koncept Ana Ristovic
Na slici sleva na desno Zeljko Mitic, Dejan Ilic, Dejana Nikolic, Danica Vukicevic, Marija Midzovic, Tamara Suskic, Jelena Lengold, Carna Popovic, Jasmina Topic, Milan Dobricic i Mirjana Sefanovic

Svetski dan poezije

Sunday, March 20, 2011

On AI, SK and other women of greatness

Tonight in Belgrade poets are gong to mark Worlds poetry day, by very colorful and vivid concept developed by Serbian poet Ana Ristovic.
I have chosen to read someone else's poetry. I enjoy honoring great writers, who are my building blocks. I have chosen AI, as symbol of all those women who made difference in my life. It would- could have been disaster, for someone like me, if we didn't have chance to read this kind of genuine feminine poetry. Things would be , for me, personally more rough. They made me stable and proud and sticking to my own thing. I am not saying I would't be here without them, for example my youth trip to London in my twenties was also experience of my life/put me in perspective, years in journalism, a number of great people... many more things made me the way I am now.
BUT those female voices were truly precious / i understood then as I know now great truth: disadvantages are advantages! This is the catch.
You can't scare me easily- thanks to my great witnesses. I am sure men don't understand this kind of voices and the thing what we gained for ourselves, maybe only a few good and nice and open men who encourage us do so. But as my great friend SK, american poet, says there hadn't been too many of them. Never will be.
In Serbia it is not nice to say aloud you'r feminist/ mostly because of very low level of understanding in media of modern processes in general. Women are also part of this conspiracy/ pointing very often in public they are not feminist. I also hate labels and maybe would say I am not feminist, cause I feel myself multifaceted but, yes I am going to resist and endure anybodies pettiness and discrimination firmly and permanently.
Man who don't tolerate us being appointed editor/in/chiefs, CEO's, generals, bishops or directors and so on/ those man are bullies. They bully other guys too. Women can bully other women and men too.
That's why feminine writers mean a world. Gender means also, cause gender is/was problem, check Vida report.
So I will recite the poem Woman to a man tonight, by AI. I could recite as well Wallace Stevens also or Novica Tadic/ because of their grandeur.
But as daily Blic quoted AI is my choice I will gladly read AI, cause I've always liked her poetry.
For example how she was so ladylike when she wrote motto "To Willam Dafoe, my Muse this time"...and so on. my Muse THIS TIME- Wow!

For now I am honoring AI cause she passed away, last March and cause she is a part of me.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

On journalism/journalists

need to say few things on this gorgeous profession/ always excited with bitter, overcritical & emotional response from the non-journalists and prejudices. We have to admit this is mythical profession, by all means. Legendary. When I was applying to Annenberg school of journalism I was very thrilled to join their course on image oh journalist in Hollywood movies. Wow! Yes, there is a myth on being journalist which can be compared with great sports careers, politicians, care racers, scientists, super models, writers and any other public figure.
Journalism is likes sport championship/ makes you be better of yourself everyday, makes you better informed, enlarges your views and, more then that, puts your point of view and moral judgement on trial. On the other hand, there is so fast gratification/ comes in less then 24 hours. You always know/ when you have dunked and made your competitors suffer great deal! And so know everyone else That is all part of media magic. You travel. You meet people.You drink and you smoke and then you quit all that stuff. Then you start again:) You make great acquaintances for life, you have chance to talk with people who meter and more then that/ you have chance to ask them every possible thing . Also, those conversations continue often even when the recorder is off. Being journalist put you in the eye of the storm personally/ you face inner limitations and have to fix them as you have to face deadlines, pressure, burn out. You face consequences of your words and work . Sometimes you change things for better. Unfortunately, sometimes people who just work as journalist/ but are not true journalist/ they make things ugly. We've seen a lot of that in Serbia and in neighbor countries.
But still/ proud to be journalist. Also a writer/ published author, in anthologies../I respect my journalistic work and experience A LOT. It gives to the writer data, experiences, sharpness, focus, moral edge, faces and places, power and need to change quickly point of view.... People often make comparison between those two professions on the expense of journalism. Oh, no sirs! Great writers are great writers/ they can express themselves in every possible way!
This mean remarks have to do with envy/ journalist have aura. Like olive branch crown/ that' how people secretly feel about media people. They don't fantasies anymore about life of writers/ they are considered freaks for centuries.
But, journalists they embody all the mysteries following life of great writers combined with everyday fuss of fast living and novelty,simply they are more flash and blood then writers. They are heroes and I know what it takes to have great story and be the first one to announce something that meters to all of us.
For Serbian crowed and journalistic quilt in the war coverage and provoking the war/it is important that you understand/ there were volunteers in all media ready to do that. No genuine journalist was ever on the side of the war. In journalism, as in all other profession there are mercenaries.
Also need to point one more thing/ journalism makes you at the same time outsider and important critic. No other professon gives this double perspecitve: being in and being apart, being social and antisocial, being opinion maker and just observer, at the same time.
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